March 30, 2009
Growing up I didn't know Corrina and hearing all her interesting stories and unexpected overlaps in our lives (we both had Louise for a middle name) was fascinating. I had this realization - Kweskin is a cool name and I dig being related to funky folks. We're all a bit creative and live unusual lives.
I look around me and people are raising their kids, working to pay the mortgage, hunkering down to stay employed. That's not interesting to me and I often feel lucky that I'm free from those obligations. I have this inclination to further simplify my already simplified life and travel, teach, consult, and dig-in all over the world. Fly, land, connect, fly, land, connect...
The client projects I'm working on these days are very interesting. They challenge and stretch me to learn and teach. School is pushing me even further - both intellectually and financially (so expensive) yet again I want to be out there in the world, beyond San Francisco. Presenting the leadership course last month in the UK was spectacular. That's the kind of work that revs my engine. Now to figure out with my coach Simone how to secure more of those projects.
I keep envisioning that I have a small house or condo someplace that allows me to have all my favorite things in one place (not in storage in Houston) and that I use this as a home base. But nearly 50% of my time is invested in travel. I think this is possible. After all, this is the Year of Research and Development.
March 28, 2009
Recently I was sitting very close to my friend Nicole at a jazz club and our knees were just about touching. I was using all my strength to hold my knee back from touching hers. She actually leaned over to me and said, "I feel strange but I'm holding my knee back so that it doesn't touch yours, because I know you aren't comfortable with that kind of touching. Is it OK if my knee touches yours?" This wasn't some kind of come-on it was a friend being sensitive to my sensitivities.
I wonder what is at the root of this cautiousness about touching?
March 27, 2009
Strategic Planning for Individual Artists: From Vision to Reality
Evolving your arts business begins with articulating goals that are ambitious, inspirational and accomplishable. You will learn how to use coaching tools that provide a foundation to the strategic planning process, keeping it grounded and solution-focused.
This workshop will cover:
Mind-mapping, past, present and future
Articulating goals in your stretch zone
Using the GROW3 coaching tool to create a plan
Thinking partnerships: peer coaching
Date: Monday, April 27, 2009
Location: SF State, 835 Market Street, 6th floor, San Francisco, CA 94103 (next to Westfield Shopping Center, Powell Street BART/Muni stop)
Cost: $35 (BOA / CCI Members) / $40 Non-members
March 25, 2009
On the other hand, this is what makes me interesting and inspirational!
As I sit and wait for it to process....everything....I can feel my stomach turn in knots and my teeth clench.
Sorry old boy, but you're on your way out. And, I've got you backed up so no funny moves before your replaced.
March 22, 2009
I invited them in to check out my room and they were very respectful of my stuff, and curious as well. The best part was that the little one said and did everything the bigger one was doing. I pointed that out to the older brother and he said, "yeah, I know..." Funny how I noticed this for the first time when they were in my space as opposed to me being in theirs.
Our little visit ended when their mom called them back downstairs. Several times during the day I reflected on the look of shock on the little one's face as I came around the corner. It cracked me up each time. His tiny world just got a little bigger.
The big revelation: I've accomplished the Year of Amy I am now in the Year of Research and Development. Through these various conversations with the Core Peeps (notice, this is now a title) I've recognized that I am on the road to something quite fantastic both personally and professionally.
March 19, 2009
March 17, 2009
The program was inspired by the still-in-production film The Rubber Room.
Here's an overview of the radio program from the This American Life blog:
"The true story of little-known rooms in the New York City Board of Education building. Teachers are told to report there instead of their classrooms. No reason is usually given. When they arrive, they find they've been put on some kind of probationary status, and they must report every day until the matter is cleared up. They call it the Rubber Room. Average length of stay? Months, sometimes years."
Worth a listen.
I'm actually blogging from my computer again instead of from the crackberry. Now that the crackberry is no longer talking to my blog it has forced me to really think about my posts before I write them. Previously I was just shooting off posts as they came to mind. It is a different pace and as you can see offers less personal photos, but I like that I can put in links and web images.
Although I am taking time to catch up it means that I am now behind on my statistics homework. That just never ends.
After months and perhaps even years of hearing only bad news about Oakland I spent the past two days celebrating Oakland's diverse arts and cultures. Over thirty organizations submitted proposals and nearly every one of them is promoting excellence and pride in the community. Ranging from professional music ensembles to inner-city youth arts programs, these organizations are keeping Oakland healthy despite the odds. The city funding being cut is like shooting Oakland in the foot.
I also had the opportunity to get to know my fellow panelists and the passionate and highly-qualified staff of the funding program. It is like being on a jury for two days. You start to know each other's strengths, weaknesses, preferences and can even predict their thoughts. To reflect Oakland's diversity the panel itself was highly diverse in so many ways. In discussing these arts organizations that promote harmony and understanding we built resonance amongst panelists. There were times when we cried, laughed and sighed together and with the applicants who were invited to respond to our questions.
Oakland rocks. City council members - please fund the arts and keep Oakland rocking.
March 16, 2009
- I'm not into loud parties with people getting drunk
- I would rather spend time in small groups or one-on-one really getting to know someone or making a deeper connection with a friend
- By 11pm I'm ready to be in my cozy bed
- So many people are in career transition - unique to the San Francisco Bay Area?
- Ask people what they do and they act confused and ashamed - and I'm not talking about bankers
- People would rather talk about 30 Rock than real life (I've never seen 30 Rock so that puts me out of the conversation)
- I'm making better connections with rocking cool amazing women than any men I've met in the past year - hum.
In contrast to this Saturday night party I had a lovely lunch earlier in the day with two mature women friends. We had flowing conversation on a variety of very interesting topics, ate unbelievable decadent food and made future plans to trek out on an arts venture. So inspiring. Why is this so much more appealing than scoping out men at depressing parties?
March 14, 2009
Example of a moving away from goal:
I need to lose twenty pounds so that I don't have a heart attack.
This may be true but it certainly is a negative motivation. You need to lose the 20 pounds so that you don't suffer. Perhaps your doctor told you that you have to set this goal - it is deal or no deal. Can you think about what the benefits will be for achieving this goal - other than not having a heart attack?
Example of a moving towards goal:
I want to climb that hill and reach the top feeling refreshed, invigorated and ready to take photos of the amazing view. My intention is to do this on the first day of summer.
Using the GROW3 model (Goal, Reality, Options, What, When, Where) you would then explore how you would reach that goal.
G = Goal - stated above
R = Reality - Climbing that mountain at this point would be very physically challenging and I would not reach the top ready to take photos and enjoy the view.
O= Options - I could start practicing by walking every day. Then I could start making short ascents up the path. I could begin taking photos more often in preparation for the experience I have at the top.
W = When, What, Where - I am going to start this weekend by walking around the neighborhood at twilight on Sunday which is my favorite time of day. Next week I am going to do this walk twice and on the third day take my camera and get some photos of spring flowers...
How much more inspiring is the second goal? Plus, using grow allows you to break it down into manageable parts. Losing 20 pounds is daunting. Doing something inspirational is motivating!
March 13, 2009
I am in a happy place. No challenge is too big. Panic goals are pulled into stretch goals.
Recognizing that the marriage was not working for me was a giant step. Bringing it to a close was so disappointing as it felt like failure. In comparison to these major life choices little things like presenting a training session on the 33rd floor of a London skyscraper was peanuts (although looking at the photo on this blog link does get me a bit woozy). Applying and being accepted into a a Doctoral program was another huge step...which resulted in me being in Statistics which is even more surprising. But I'm doing it.
Now I've hired my friend Simone to help me build my consulting biz plan. She is an amazing coach. In just one session I've gained so much more clarity on what where I've come from and where I'm going. Strategic planning for a strategic planning consultant.
More to the point - I've learned to love and value ME over the past year. As Drew Barrymore says in the Feb/March issue of BUST magazine quoted from Harper's Bazaar, "I've been single for months now, and I've turned my attention toward my passions, my friends, and the causes I believe in. It's about learning who I am, not through a man but for myself." Notice she has set a moving-towards as opposed to moving-away from goal. Digging it Drew.
March 12, 2009
March 11, 2009
Images from Nytol website.
March 10, 2009
Working on fixing the problem.
This morning my yoga class at Alameda Yoga Station sang me happy birthday. So sweet. Finally getting in the mood.
March 4, 2009
I think the problem is a combination of a few factors:
-statistics is hard
-for homework and quizes I could use my book, find the formula - based on the current chapter, and take hours to figure out the answer
-i didn't study enough, but am not sure how much more I could have studied before my brain exploded
-self-doubt around ability to do math
-voice in my head reminding me that if I fail the midterm I am wasting money and also won't be able to continue in the doctoral program
I suppose that this is the reason why not everyone earns a Doctorate. Although it is a bummer because it is the actual Doctoral courses that are related to my ambitions as opposed to this statistics course.
Maybe I can beg the teacher for extra credit assignments. Oh I am very bummed. Perhaps lots of people failed and the grades will be curved...
March 3, 2009
Good to be home in San Francisco. I feel equally happy here as I did in the UK. My next goal is to figure out how to split my time between the two countries.
March 2, 2009
When I finally emerged from the bathroom the alarm seemed to have reset, so no worries. But that was not the case. As I was checking out the desk manager said, "Ah, room 207, you set off the fire alarm this morning. You forgot to shut the bathroom door when you warmed the shower." Resisting the urge to comment on his comment, I simply smiled and said, "oops, sorry."
hopefully I didn't awaken any of the other guests. The final departing words from the manager were, "have a lovely day famous 207."
March 1, 2009
-I reached numerous goals including continuing to consult internationally, teaching and presenting, collaborating, and continuously learning.
-I brought together my UK and US colleagues and it worked!
-I presented a programme on the 33rd floor in a room that had floor to ceiling windows and I excelled.
-Simone presented and excelled in her work.
-i travel led with Leah and learned so much about being a good friend and colleague - trusting in building a new friendship.
-I met up with friends a d colleagues and had wonderful conversations about life and work.
-I organized trains, flights, buses and hotels with minimal challenges.
-I reconnected with family and made new memories.
-I meditated regularly (but would have liked to have done more yoga.)
-I navigated London.
-I remained relaxed and patient.
-I blogged a lot!
Thoughts on what I want to "learn" from this experience.
-I have skills that are valuable both in the US and UK.
-I have dear friends in the UK that I want to continue to keep close to my heart.
-I want to keep travelling to the UK and perhaps set up a base of operations here.
To finish my last day in the UK I have just purchased a replacement black cap from H+M as I lost the previous one on the train from Leeds to Cardiff.
Final, final is a refelxology treatment at my most favorite spa in Whitely's mall. Oh heaven. I am waiting in anticipation for my appointment. Then off to Hounslow for a stay at a hotel close to Heathrow. I couldn't have imagined a more lovely return. Now to plan my next UK business venture.
Success gained the hard way has been the story of the last year, which, nonetheless, has surely been studded with landmark decisions and occasional triumphs. Wednesday's new moon opens a less pressured three months. Sticking with your odder ideas works in your favour.